What is Haddie’s room like in Heaven?

Haddie, A few days ago I was having one of those weepy mornings.  I had gone on a walk early by myself and cried for the majority of it.  I came home and got Elo ready and we all got in the car to head to my doctor's appointment.  These have become a family affair

It’s all just BULL****

Haddie Bo Bo, There has been so much sadness in the news lately.  So many families losing their children.  I can't bring myself to read the articles because reading about their pain ignites my own pain in a way that sticks with me for days.  I know how they feel and I know what the

Girls Trip Missing You

Haddie Bo Bo, One of my morning routines this past year was to check #Timehop while I was still in bed.  Many times I got to see your beautiful face and see what we were doing this time last year.  It was bittersweet as you can imagine.  Sometimes it left me sobbing and other times

Stuck between what should be, and what is

Haddie Bo Bo,   Your Uncle Aaron spoke at church today.  He was talking about the tension in our lives and he said, "Tension is being stuck between what should be, and what is." It hit me.  This perfectly describes what I feel on a day to day basis. I constantly feel a tension between

Mama Bear on Steroids

Haddie Bo Bo,   The more and more pregnant I get the more my Mama Bear comes out and it's like I'm on steroids. This is our last night of our vacation.  We are in Nashville, we are tired, so we decided to stay in.  We ordered appetizers from the restaurant next door and sat

Selfies and Swings

Haddie Bo Bo,   Today I woke up to the sun streaming into my room in Myrtle Beach.  I spent the morning soaking in the sun and watching Elo literally roll around in the sand.  This day last year is the day that I have thought about the most since you have passed.  We spent

I still can’t imagine one more day without you.

Haddie Bo Bo, Last year at this time I was still on that cruise that we took.  So my #Timehop has been filled with those pictures.  But one of those days we were gone you spent it with Aunt Emily.  She took all these amazing pictures of you.  They are some of my all time

Selfish Mother’s Day

  Haddie Bo Bo,   Today was hard.  I woke up and you were my first thought. This should be my first Mother's Day without you.  But it's not.  Last year your Daddy and I went on a cruise over Mother's Day.  When we originally booked the cruise I remember the lady asking me if

A selfless friend.

We went to church today and then ran some errands.  By the time we got home it was nap time for everyone.  As I was putting Elo in her bed she said, "Mama, I don't want you to go to heaven."  Although we talk about heaven and how wonderful it is and that you are

Our last month we spent together

Haddie, April is drawing to an end.  I laid in bed this morning thinking about this next month.  May.  Our last month we spent together.  Your eyes were so bright and your smile was so big.  How will I live through this month.  Inside I am screaming.  I'm pissed.  I'm broken.  My heart is broken