Today I found myself driving around running errands. I ended up in the area of my old doctor’s office. I haven’t been here since THAT day. All of a sudden something took over me and next thing I new I was on auto pilot to that office building. Even though my logical self would have told me or screamed at me STOP! TURN AROUND! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! I continued. I was almost in a trance.
The closer I got I could feel my ears turning red, my heart start to race, the anxiety build in my throat. It was almost like there were hands around my neck and they were slowly applying more and more pressure. I pulled in and parked my car and stared at the door. Thankfully this is where I stopped. I went no further.
This day was the start of a new life. “New” usually means shiny, better, good forward moving change, but that doesn’t apply here.
It is strange to me how much our physical body functions can be effected by a place. That office is just a building. But yet it is so much more. The meaning I put on that building is so powerful that is alters my whole being.
This just proves how great our loss is. Haddie your loss is huge. I feel it to this day. I fight for you…daily. I love you.