Haddie Bo Bo,I was looking at the calendar for one reason or another.  One reason being that October 2nd marks 4 months with out you.  I realized that the end the year is coming sooner than I would like.  The end of 2015 terrifies me it brought an anxiety I haven't known yet.  I don't

Silly Bo BoHaddie Bo Bo,I no longer go to work everyday, but I have been helping out a few days when I am needed.  I woke up at 6 this morning which is the earliest I have been up since you have been gone.  You waking me up at 6 was the norm for so

Haddie Bo Bo, In the first few weeks after you had past I was living in a fog.  I was under the impression that you went to sleep and just didn't wake up.  This is the furthest thing from the truth.  We slowly started finding out different pieces of information about what happened.  After each

Haddie Bo Bo,I grew up going to the Allegan County Fair.  I loved going and looking at the animals and wishing I was a country girl:)  This past week my friend Jamie and her little girl Izzy asked us if we wanted to go.  We ended up meeting them there on Friday. We took the

Haddie,Everything I do I miss you...Even when I am distracted by the demands of life and not actively thinking about you...I miss you. I had signed Elo up for Cubbies.  It is Awana for 3-4 year olds.  I was so excited to send her and get her Cubbies vest.  Tonight was the first night.  I

Haddie Bo Bo,Some of my favorite times when you were alive was watching you and Eloise together.  Today Elo and I took a bike ride to the park.  When I say bike ride I mean she sat on her tricycle while I pushed it. When we got there she immediately ran over to the swings,

Haddie Bo Bo,Everything of yours has been left untouched.   Your bottles, formula, cereal, and snacks are still in your cupboard.  Your crib still has the same drool stained sheet on it.  Your clothes are still in your drawers and your toys are on your floor.  Everything has been untouched until yesterday.  I started sorting

Sweet Haddie Sue,Your Mama asked me to write down the story of that one memory you and I made together. Do you remember the one? That one time… I let you fall off my bed? Oh goodness, I still can't think about it without a twinge of guilt. But you were so forgiving, that I

Dear Haddie Bo Bo,A broken heart is the worst, torturous, pain I have ever felt.  Knowing that the pain will always be there and never leave is so daunting.  Summer is slowly slipping away and it has me anxious.  The changing of the season is one of the many events that remind me that this

Haddie Bo BO,Sitting next to my tv is a picture of you.  Elo moved it there today because she kept hitting it with her ball.  So she moved it right next to the tv.  I have been trying to focus on some sort of mind numbing tv show but I can't.  It's been staring at