|Silly Bo Bo|
Haddie Bo Bo,
I no longer go to work everyday, but I have been helping out a few days when I am needed. I woke up at 6 this morning which is the earliest I have been up since you have been gone. You waking me up at 6 was the norm for so long. I got on the road around 7 and made the 2.5 hour drive to the other side of the state. I cry in the car a lot even when it’s only a 10 minute drive so this was something I was not looking forward too. Sure enough I didn’t even make it to the highway before the tears started coming, they didn’t stop for the whole first hour. Finally it was a decent hour and I could start calling people to keep me company. It was a very busy day and my mind was occupied. I had a glimpse of my old life and how that felt. In my old life as the day winded down I would start to look forward to getting to see you and your sister. I would leave work as soon as possible to jump in the car and hurry to where you were. I would pull in the drive way, throw my car in park, and briskly walk to the door. I loved the feeling in my tummy when I would see your face light up when it saw mine. I felt complete when I got to hold you in my arms, it made it all worth it. I would walk your sister and you to the car and strap you in. Before I closed your door I would peek into your car seat and kiss your cheeks, tell you I loved you, and make you show me your big toothy grin. Today was different. As the day came to an end instead of anticipating picking you up I had the realization that I have to go home to the same crappy situation I left. That sucked. Coming home is never the same.
In other news….I am now doing anything I can to honor you and remember you. I had a great conversation with a lady who is in charge of Safe Sleep Classes in Ottawa County. We did some brainstorming on how we can partner together to bring awareness to Safe Sleep but also tell your story. My next thoughts are very new so I am just going to put them out there as my thoughts. My dream is to provide a Sleep Sack to every baby born!