Haddie Bo Bo,I had traveled to Chicago earlier this year for work. I was gone for 3.5 days and your Daddy was taking care of you and your sister. I would facetime you guys everyday a couple times a day. Every time I called you guys were doing great. When I came home I picked
Haddie Bo Bo,Today I turned 32. I have always looked forward to birthdays in the past. I love to celebrate really anything worth celebrating. I wasn't dreading this day like I have dreaded other days like your birthday, Thanksgiving, 6 months, etc. So I didn't mentally prepare, or process any feelings, I just woke up.
Haddie Bo Bo,Daddy hung up the canvas pictures of you and Eloise in our bedroom. Eloise and I were laying in my bed because we weren't feeling well. She looked over at your picture and said, "Haddie jump out of the picture." She then went on to pretend that you were jumping on the bed
Haddie Bo Bo,Today was a great day! I set up your "Haddie Tree" at Aunt Alisa's gym. So many people helped me from gluing, cutting, copying, and holding doors open. It looks amazing and I am so proud. We are set up to receive donations by check or PayPal and I posted the link on
Haddie Bo Bo,Wednesday before Thanksgiving I stopped into my old office to visit the staff and see how everyone was doing. I sat down at my old desk and looked around. Did I miss this? The truth is yes I do miss this. I wish more than anything I was going to work everyday and
Haddie Bo Bo,I am hardly, rarely, ever alone. I sleep with your daddy every night. I fall asleep next to him, and wake up to him every morning. Your sister is with me 24/7 with the exception of pre-school two days a week for 2.5 hours. Friends and framily check on me daily through Facebook,
Haddie Bo Bo,I shed lots of tears for you yesterday. I was very angry and just frustrated that your not here and life is hard. There is something hard everyday. Eloise is talking more and more about you. Yesterday she said, "I am going to wait here until Haddie comes back." Then this morning she
Dear Haddie Bo Bo,Last night I was watching a video of you on my phone and Elo came over. She saw you and her face lit up and said, "Hi Haddie Bo Bo!" She waved frantically at you on my phone. My heart melts.What are you doing up there today, Haddie? Today it's rainy and
Dear Haddie Bo Bo,I don't really have much to say tonight just that I miss you so much baby girl. Today Eloise and I went over to Grammy's house for dinner. Tomorrow she leaves for Florida for the winter. She has been doing this for the last 5 years or so. Last year she went
Haddie Bo Bo,I woke up first yesterday morning before anyone else. Since you have passed we usually sleep until we both wake up together or Eloise comes and gets us. Recently I have started waking up earlier than everyone else. This makes me think "things are getting back to normal". I have adapted to my