The perfect family picture doesn't exist for us anymore.  I found myself sucked into browsing people's facebook pages today.  Over and over I was looking at people's perfect-looking family pictures and I was jealous. Yesterday I was sad.  I was sad all day.  I missed you.  I was struggling with the reality of life.  I

Haddie Bo Bo,   Eloise and I have been in Florida for the last couple of days.  I was texting with your Daddy last night and I said to him, "Tomorrow is going to suck, I can feel it already." Daddy is great because he always tries to make me feel better he says, "I

Monday, February 29th, we are kicking off an online Instagram auction.  Many shops have donated homemade items to be auctioned off to raise money for Haddie's Calling.  The bidding starts tomorrow and will go through March 3rd.  If you are interested check out @haddiescallingauction on Instagram.  There is a picture that was posted with the

Haddie Bo Bo,Wednesday before Thanksgiving I stopped into my old office to visit the staff and see how everyone was doing.  I sat down at my old desk and looked around.  Did I miss this?  The truth is yes I do miss this.  I wish more than anything I was going to work everyday and

Haddie Bo Bo,I am hardly, rarely, ever alone.  I sleep with your daddy every night.  I fall asleep next to him, and wake up to him every morning.  Your sister is with me 24/7 with the exception of pre-school two days a week for 2.5 hours.  Friends and framily check on me daily through Facebook,

Haddie Bo Bo,I shed lots of tears for you yesterday.  I was very angry and just frustrated that your not here and life is hard.  There is something hard everyday. Eloise is talking more and more about you.  Yesterday she said, "I am going to wait here until Haddie comes back."  Then this morning she

Dear Haddie Bo Bo,Last night I was watching a video of you on my phone and Elo came over.  She saw you and her face lit up and said, "Hi Haddie Bo Bo!"  She waved frantically at you on my phone.  My heart melts.What are you doing up there today, Haddie?  Today it's rainy and

Dear Haddie Bo Bo,I don't really have much to say tonight just that I miss you so much baby girl. Today Eloise and I went over to Grammy's house for dinner.  Tomorrow she leaves for Florida for the winter.  She has been doing this for the last 5 years or so.  Last year she went

Haddie Bo Bo,I woke up first yesterday morning before anyone else.  Since you have passed we usually sleep until we both wake up together or Eloise comes and gets us.  Recently I have started waking up earlier than everyone else.  This makes me think "things are getting back to normal".  I have adapted to my

Haddie Bo Bo,I often wrestle with Heaven.  For as long as I can remember I believed in Heaven and Hell.  I used to believe that when we went to heaven we would spend all day praising God.  Which meant on our knees...all day.  Yes I want to praise God in everything that I do but