I did a thing.

Haddie Bo Bo, I know it's been such a long time since I have wrote you a letter.  I wish I could tell you there are all these reasons why.  But really it's because I feel like I would be saying the same things that I have already said. The truth is that I have

“I didn’t want them to see me”

Haddie Bo Bo,   As the year comes to a close, I think it’s natural to find yourself reflecting.  I remember writing a post last year about still being “stuck” in some areas of my life because of my grief.  While I would like to sit here and tell you that I moved forward in

Moment by Moment

My Dear Haddie Sue,   5 Years.  I remember in the early days after losing you I didn’t think I could survive the next moment without you.  It hurt to breath, to think, it hurt to exist without you.  Many days the pain was so great that the only thing I looked forward to was

A little bit Selfish

To MY daughter Haddie Bo Bo, I know it's been awhile since I have written.  But know that you are in my mind all the time.  Literally....ALL THE TIME. This will be our 4th Christmas without you.  Just typing that out I can feel my eyes start to fill and the blood drain from

I dream

Dedication Day at church Haddie Bo Bo, I'm a dreamer.  I always have been. When you dream of what your future might hold you dream big.  At least I did.  You think about your dream job, your dream house, the family you will have.  You dream about the places you will travel and