Dear Haddie Bo Bo, Inhale, exhale, inhale exhale…. Thump, Thump, Thump. I breathe without thought. My heart beats without effort. I remember a time that each breath was hard. My heart hurt with each thump. It took effort to continue. It was a choice. I had wished it would stop. Being
Haddie Bo Bo, I know it's been such a long time since I have wrote you a letter. I wish I could tell you there are all these reasons why. But really it's because I feel like I would be saying the same things that I have already said. The truth is that I have
Haddie Bo Bo, As the year comes to a close, I think it’s natural to find yourself reflecting. I remember writing a post last year about still being “stuck” in some areas of my life because of my grief. While I would like to sit here and tell you that I moved forward in
My Dear Haddie Sue, 5 Years. I remember in the early days after losing you I didn’t think I could survive the next moment without you. It hurt to breath, to think, it hurt to exist without you. Many days the pain was so great that the only thing I looked forward to was
Dear Haddie BoBo, Today I found myself driving around running errands. I ended up in the area of my old doctor's office. I haven't been here since THAT day. All of a sudden something took over me and next thing I new I was on auto pilot to that office building. Even though my
Dear Haddie Bo Bo: Your Daddy and I just got back from a trip out west. We visited a friend that Mama met at the National Cribs for Kids Conference. We attended her Gala for her foundation that is very similar to Haddie's Calling but on a much bigger scale. I had the pleasure
Haddie, Mother's day is always a day that I have dreaded since you died, for many reasons. Of course because you aren't here, but also because of the guilt I feel. I decided to take a cruise without you on the only Mother's Day you were alive. It's hard to feel like celebrating with
Dear Haddie Bo Bo, We have experienced all four season in one week here in Michigan. Early this week we had amazing summer-like weather. It felt so good to be outside breathing in fresh air, and letting the sun warm my skin. It is truly amazing how weather can be so good for your
To MY daughter Haddie Bo Bo, I know it's been awhile since I have written. But know that you are in my mind all the time. Literally....ALL THE TIME. This will be our 4th Christmas without you. Just typing that out I can feel my eyes start to fill and the blood drain from
Haddie Bo Bo, Wow life has been busy, distracting, and moving along. Today I can't find the good. Usually I can find something positive to distract myself from the feelings that I have about you not being here. Today I can't. Your face is what I see when I close my eyes. My thoughts are
