Haddie Bo Bo,
You were small. You were just a baby. You hadn’t spoken your first words yet or taken your first steps. You hadn’t lived long enough for people to know who Hadley Sue Bromley was all about. In fact the only people who really knew you were just a handful of us. You didn’t make any art work for me to hang, or write anything for me to reread. I guess you could say that you hadn’t made your mark on the world yet. You hadn’t experienced a lifetime of living like someone who dies at the end of a “good life”. You didn’t have stories to tell or advice to give.
But none of that matters. I KNEW you. 9 months is a short life and hardly long enough to say that you truly know someone. But I knew you. You changed my world completely and then you changed it again when you left. You may have been small but the loss of you is BIG. It is ginormous. It fills my mind, and my heart. It defines me. I am a different person because of you and forever changed. To me you were more than just a baby. You were MINE. I had so many hopes and dreams for you and our family. You completed this story.
The other day Eloise was at the neighbor’s house. She met their “Papa” for the first time and in true Eloise fashion she sat down and told him everything she wanted to share. She told him about you “her sister” and of course she told him that you died. She then told him that I keep you in a box with a “bunch of sand”. This made me laugh out loud. Oh Eloise…someday it will all make sense to you and I am sorry. I show Fitz your videos and I tell him all about you. It’s painful. I will probably be that Mom that they talk about amongst themselves. That is until they have their own children and realize what I have lost. What we have lost.
Love you Hads,