I miss you, so I look at your pictures. This makes me miss you more. I then watch all of you videos and sob through them. Nothing eases this pain. Nothing fills this hole. Nothing makes me less angry.
Today we are having a garage sale. This is Eloise’s first garage sale and she is having some attachment issues. I did not plan for these breakdowns. It’s kinda hard to make a sale when the child is screaming, “That’s MY toy!” I am also selling the double stroller that I used for you and Eloise. I am hoping it sells because it’s heavy and takes up a lot of room in our garage. I also feel like it taunts me every time I look at it. I see the spot where you should be sitting and I am reminded of what I don’t have. Of course I am keeping anything of yours that has good memories. Which is mostly everything except that stroller.
|Our adventures in that stroller|
As always Haddie I am missing you today is no different. I sit here wondering how this garage sale would be different if you were here. I sure it would be interesting and hard that’s for sure and I would welcome that challenge. I hope that you and our friend’s baby girl are having a great time today with Jesus. I can’t wait for the day that we join you.