Haddie, Last week I received a disc of pictures in the mail.  These pictures are from the day you died.  I have not seen this pictures.  I had put the disc in the cupboard with

Haddie Bo Bo, This morning your brother woke me up.  I made him a bottle and fed him in bed while watching a Hallmark Christmas movie.  When he was done and changed his diaper and

Haddie Bo Bo, I feel it.  I feel you slipping away from me every day.  Sometimes I don't realize it.  Other moments it slaps me in the face and I am consumed with guilt, hate,

Haddie Bo Bo, This morning I was laying in my bed holding your brother.  He was smiling and laughing at me, warming my heart.  It was a special moment just me and him.  It was

Haddie Bo Bo, So I have been taking this anti-depressant and lately I have been feeling different.  I feel happier, more content, hardly crying ever.  I find that I think about you, almost like reflection.

Haddie Bo Bo, It's been awhile since I have written.  There has been a lot going on.  One being your brother who likes to occupy both of my arms most of the day, and that